Introspection: THE END (out of the blue)

Seems Relevant…

ITS.THE.END.

Yes, Okay not really…

Summarized version in case the absolute lack of pictures bores people to death or you can’t be bothered to read it, cuz I know I won’t be bothered to read something this long too:

Kind of sudden, there wasn’t even any foreshadowing. Basically I’m putting this blog on permanent-if not, a really really long- hiatus, possibly until, well the very last day of the GCE O levels paper (in November) for various reasons (not just academics). I’ll finish up on Madoka though.

This post has undergone many revisions; I’d be happy if you read on.

The thought of killing of this blog came into my mind some time last year: Its not like I get good results and all so this year being my O level year, I did give it some thought but I passed on it until now. If you are a Singaporean who sat for O level paper in the past 5 years, I think you might be able to relate, specifically if you know how rigorous the GCE art coursework due in June is. And especially if your school thinks that your batch is the most promising cohort and is desperate in trying to put themselves back on the list of local band 1 schools.

I digress. I haven’t had more than 5 hours of sleep per day for the past few weeks, as Squidward puts it “Even my eyebags have bags.” So its not that serious but I look like a panda, and I’ve been falling sick, it was time to prioritize.

I love writing a blog. The freedom of expression and voicing out your views aside, it sometimes makes your day when someone just agrees with you. And I’ve honestly learnt more from 1  year of blogging and reading blogs than 3 years of English lessons, not that I ever pay proper attention in class though. The entire blogging thing has been a learning experience, it was refreshing and fun, until now.

Generally, I try not to blog about an episode if my post would be more than 5 days later than the original air day. This has become rather tedious on certain days, like Star Driver for example, airs on Sunday, but I only ever watch it on Tuesdays so I only blog it when its really interesting or I watched it on Monday. I suppose I should have put in more effort in checking the spelling and what not too~ I got tired. In fact recently, anime just doesn’t look as interesting as it was years back. Ironically, I was bad at writing back then. I only made progress last year in summer and fall. Even more ironically, that was the time my PC died on me.

I considered getting a friend or someone to help write the blog while I was doing exams and all ut I realized: I like being a loner… So the idea was struck out. The idea of less frequent more general editorial issue centered blogging did cross my mind but it just doesn’t fit my style: I enjoy writing episodic reviews more, because I honestly cannot imagine myself writing an essay unless its for school.

So prioritizing: Drawing, on the other hand had the thrill of creation that writing had and well, I’m better at it. I actually have a few personal projects I wanted to start working on but my short attention span won’t let me. I go on to something new before I finish what i’m doing so now I have almost dozens of stuff I need to do. I figured if I wanted to do something, I should really stop procrastinating, having fun, and get shit done. My One shot is still only at the story board and I keep editing it that its no longer the original story anymore. Character concepts are inconsistent; old projects are barely started… I need to start working on them seriously and not after O levels.

Just last Sunday, I completely blew off my art coursework to watch Nichijou and Dog Days simply because I was completely demoralized by my lack of progress in my work, I really regret it now, but I’m still demoralized. I dug this post out from the depths of my Hard drive and revised it all over again. Yep, this is the end of the blog. There’s this thing about how most blogs face death in 3 years, I moved to wordpress during 2 years ago, premature death for my blog it is.

I won’t stop watching anime though, my watching schedule might get more relaxed after stopping blogging of course. You might actually see me more often in comments or on twitter and tumblr (I reblog way too many stuff for my own good…). Otherwise, I’ll most probably be on Deviantart or Pixiv, which I haven’t been active on for quite some time due to various reasons again.

BRB in November 2011, probably.

Cheers,

Azure